maanantai 14. elokuuta 2017

Winter 2017

After this years Lumous (which was month ago) I realize I haven´t been blogging and seeing few of my blog readers, who are still hanging there (although I don´t post anymore that often) I got such a boost for blogging again and I waited a little for new idea for my blog look and which way I want this to go. I have so many pictures that I haven´t use, this year has been such a great year.

My year started for me to fuck up my redside and dyeing my whole hair black. I was so frustrated about it I decided to change my whole look and do black/grey ombre hair. It looked so nice. I had huge decoration inspiration, I bought new things and changed the whole bedroom look and moved the bed and wanted the whole apartment look like viking/witchy. Fairylights everywhere and candles, it was so pretty and I really liked the atmosphere.

I saw many of my friends and had such a girl bonding moments (add lots of hearts here). I was in a such big depression phase, I don´t even know what I would have done without my friends. I love you hella lot.

Valentine´s day was again amazing, I got a little heart cake and you can see on the corner that even my cat liked it (damn you Freya).

I went in Helsinki (I was again a whole week, partying, photoshoot, friends, tattoos) to Pretty in Ink continue my Harley, it still need some for. My Harley hot pants are amazing, (they are still my favorite hot pants) got them from I have such a big tattoo fever again.. want more! But I still have like 5 tattoos unfinished.. maybe finish them and then new ones? A hella lot new ones!

Glad to be back, love you guys, stay spooky! My blog is in progress for new look, totally in love with Life is strange at the moment. I even have blue nail polish at the moment like wtf man..

keskiviikko 10. toukokuuta 2017

Clothing haul

If you didn´t see my last years haul/try on video, here it is! I already miss my Harley hair.. Anyway, doing finishing touches on my last years video clips, after doing these, time to do more new videos!

perjantai 5. toukokuuta 2017

My Cabinet of curiosities

Biggie is one of my favorites, probably because it is the biggest skull I have at the moment

Beltane is always one of my biggest sabbats and I am used to do Spring cleaning around that time. I am almost finished, but I still need to go trough quite much stuff to throw away.. I am just way too full of all the stuff I have. The limit has come. 
Bedroom has been this years project (last year it was the kitchen, I am taking pictures from it too, but I am going trough few cabinets first and there is little bit of a chaos at the moment..) and I got huge amount of inspiration and power from the Spring  sun. I decided it is time to paint the walls white (I will show some before and afters soon too), because the wallpapers were just.. ugly. White totally brightened the whole room, it feels so much bigger and calm. And I love the contrast of white and black.

Little deers I have all around the house

The old bookshelf (which was brown before I painted it black) got new look this year because I wanted it to be my new cabinet of curiosities. It shows most of my bone collection and few of my witch things. I didn´t move my witch books or tarots, because I have noticed this is a good place for them. The lights has been there from last Yule, they look so pretty that I don´t want to take them off at all.

I just love these birdies

Foxy lady

Chicken bones, a full rat (still on wraps) and a raccoon dog

My healing crystals, which has been loaded with snow magick

Lambie lamb

First dream catcher I made this year

I still want more bottles!

Little glass cup was used on our wedding ceremony and now it has magical herbs in it

sunnuntai 22. tammikuuta 2017

Cinderella (2015)

Sooo... I have been loving classic fairytale movies lately. And some reason the acted ones has been the top thing this winter. Here is few new ones I watched first time ever or after a long time (didn´t even remember the plot). Definitely  must see movies for you too! Or.. maybe I just do this one by one, otherwise this would be too long post for you to read ha! Let´s start with Cinderella!

Ok I know what you guys think, how can this story or movie or what ever, be told any new kind of way, well, getting all beautiful by fashion, scenery, awesome actors, music and directing. It really went trough my feelings and I even cried. I needed to watch the movie twice, first watch wasn´t enough! 
If you have seen Once upon a time, you know how the dressing make you feel all uuu and aahh, well, this movie does that. Sandy Powell just kicked ass by her designs. Earlier costumes I like for her doing (just by examples) was from Interview with the vampire and Gangs of New York. 

And you may know how in Once upon a time they make you understand and love the villains too (like in the Maleficent, you just can´t but love how they make you feel all different about all the characters.

"Have courage and be kind", it is like a new motto for me. It is such a good thing to everyone to remember, that you need to have courage when things get rough and even the hardest times, people need kindness. Ella´s mom is such a great mom. And her dad too. The mansion is totally my dream home, so much nature there too! Stepmom has the wickest style ever, gosh I want to wear her every outfit. And if I had a fairy godmother, I wish Helena (her costume lights up when she cast spells!!) will buff her way in to my life! Oh the glitter in this movie..
Ps. I wish I had the rose garden from the palace.

perjantai 20. tammikuuta 2017


dystopia (from the Greek δυσ- and τόπος, alternatively, cacotopia, kakotopia, or simply anti-utopia) is a community or society that is undesirable or frightening. It is translated as "not-good place", an antonym of utopia, a term that was coined by Sir Thomas More and figures as the title of his most well-known work, Utopia (the blueprint for an ideal society with minimal crime, violence and poverty). Dystopian societies appear in many artistic works, particularly in stories set in the future. Some of the most famous examples are George Orwell's 1984 and Aldous Huxley's Brave New World. Dystopias are often characterized by dehumanization, totalitarian governments, environmental disaster, or other characteristics associated with a cataclysmic decline in society. Dystopian societies appear in many subgenres of fiction and are often used to draw attention to real-world issues regarding society, environmentpoliticseconomicsreligionpsychologyethicsscience, and/or technology. Some authors however also use the term to refer to actually-existing societies, many of which are or have been totalitarian polities, or societies in an advanced state of collapse and disintegration. An attempt to draw together and compare both the fictional and real dystopias has been made in Gregory Claeys's Dystopia: A Natural History (Oxford University Press, 2016). Wikipedia

I don´t actually know what to say. I have been feeling so empty this past week. I was out with my best friend and we went to a club, I was so happy and I really felt true joy when I saw her dance, she never dances. But then something hit me, so many people, with so many emotions, it was just too much. Now I feel isolated and at the same time I miss people and energy. 
Every time these kind of feelings hits me, it is so confusing. What do I really feel? Who I really am? What I even want to do? Do I really exist? 
Some how dystopia makes me feel peace, the whole world seem so chaotic at the moment and I always reason it even more chaotic in my head. I try to find different sides of everything, analyze things and find beauty in ugliness. People. You make me feel crazy and sane at the same time. I don´t know does that even make any sense.

My whole life and existence seems so.. beyond. I am lifted from being just some material, I feel like I am part of everything and still nothing. Everything seems to have a deeper meaning and it matters. Still it doesn´t. At all. Nothing does. Does it?
All I want to do is make people happy. But if I can´t even make myself happy, how do I do that? I am so done being depressed. I miss me. After I realized how much I changed last year, I have only wanted my old self back. Although before last year, I hated me. But what I actually hate, is being feelingless. I love being super loud, super happy, super smiley. I want to dance, make my friends laugh and tell random people why they are awesome. I love giving unbirthday gifts, do good things without any reason, speak stuff that doesn´t make any sense. I love life. I love love.

So maybe I should. Starting today (again) I do stuff that makes me happy, so I can YOU guys happy too! Seeing all shades of blue, while being blue.